Breaker Whiskey

• 268 - Two Hundred Sixty Eight

  To Persephone. Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen.If you'd like to support the show, please visit atypicalartists.co/support.If you'd like to send Whiskey a message, click here.--[TRANSCRIPT]Hey, Persephone. Um, yeah, sorry I think you missed me by quite a bit. I haven't been in L.A. for almost a year. Is that right? Jesus. More than. God, more than a year. Time really flies when you're driving around the country aimlessly. Time really crawls when you're still trying to navigate a relationship with somebody that you have to make work because they're the only other person in the world. That's not fair. I want to make it work. I, I, I do. I just. I still don't know what to do. I still don't know how to build a future. I don't know if I should be like you and keep searching for answers, keep searching for other people, or if I should just cut my losses, be grateful for what I have, and settle down. Maybe it's not about having a plan. Maybe it's just about finding little moments that you can...We, um, we found a working jukebox the other day in an old diner and spent, like, an hour and a half playing every song we could and just dancing. And it was, it felt so good, you know, to hold Harry in my arms like that. To watch her laugh. To hear her sing. To get to spin her around in the middle of a diner. A place I never would have been able to do that. Yeah. But it was also bittersweet because you know, the places where I would have taken her dancing, we had friends there, community, and...I've danced with lots of women at those places, but never someone that I really loved. And I really want to. Um, but, um, yeah, I'm not, I'm not in LA anymore. Um, but if, if you are, um, and you're looking for a working jukebox, there is one in Los Feliz at the, um, oh, that, the, the pie place, um, on Vermont. Yeah, I, so if you... If you're still there and that jukebox is working, tell me because I don't know, maybe that'll be a sign of something. Maybe that'll mean that we can actually find each other or maybe it just means that that jukebox works in every universe. Um, but. Either way, let me know.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• From Persephone (Listener Message)

  A message from Persephone. Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen.If you'd like to support the show, please visit atypicalartists.co/support.If you'd like to send Whiskey a message, click here.--[TRANSCRIPT]Hey Whiskey, this is Pershephone, callin out again on day 42. Since the radio static went silent a couple days ago I think I have even less of a chance of making contact with you. I'm not even getting residual transmissions anymore, which is... Definitely not a confidence booster. I'm still in the city, trying to match your location and send something through, but the probability of you still being here is getting slimmer by the day. The last I heard you were planning on leaving LA, so... Not great. Still no contact with anyone else, verbal or otherwise. I might move on soon, keep the search going. So if you, or literally anything else wants to say hi? Send me a sign. Okay. Signing off.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• 267 - Two Hundred Sixty Seven

  Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen.If you'd like to support the show, please visit atypicalartists.co/support.--[TRANSCRIPT](breathless) Hi Herm, uh, it's, it's me again. Well, I just wanted to get on the horn and say that, you know, I was thinking about what you said about feeling like a kid when you complain and you know, how I was missing feeling like a kid in any sense and so anyway, um, Harry and I, we, we found some, some sleds at a sporting goods store. And we went sledding. And I can't remember the last time that I just let myself go sailing down a hill without a care in the world and- and no matter the consequence. It was...it was freeing. It was fun. I don't think I've ever seen Harry laugh like that. I don't think I've ever laughed like that. So thank you, Herm, for inspiring me, however inadvertently. And I hope...I hope you find something that makes you feel like a kid in a good way.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• 266 - Two Hundred Sixty Six

  Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen.If you'd like to support the show, please visit atypicalartists.co/support.If you'd like to send Whiskey a message, click here.--[TRANSCRIPT]Hi, Scarlet. God, this is trippy. I guess I'm talking to Red, too, because. Well, I don't know what you all can hear of what I'm hearing, but, Red, if you can hear me. A person? Well, a person that sounded just like you reached out and says their name is Scarlet, or that's a pseudonym that they chose because of you. Well, now I don't know who I'm talking to. Two different versions of the same person speaking to me from two distinct universes. Both universes sound tough. And lonely. But universes in which the two of you have taken very different paths, had very different lives and experiences. I think about her all the time. The other me. Well, all of the other me's. What are they doing? What lives are they living? In how many universes are they already dead? In how many universes are there accompanying Harry's keeping all of those Whiskey's company. In how many universes are those Harry's driving all of those Whiskeys completely insane and vice versa? I shouldn't say that. Things have been a little better lately. The arguments fewer and farther between, but...I don't know. Now we're at the point where things are just aimless. We settled into a rhythm. For a while there, you know, in Pennsylvania. And then obviously the year I was gone...well. That was aimless in its own way, but the driving without a destination in mind was kind of the point. But I don't- I don't think we're ready to settle back down. But we need to do something. We can't just keep moving from place to place without any destination in mind or without any purpose. Harry really needs a purpose and we've gotten good at the staying alive bit that that's not going to keep her occupied for long. I'm not going to keep her occupied for long, I- How do you keep a brain active when you only hear one voice? Scarlet, you said that you've only been hearing your own voice for the last seven years, and I can't even imagine what that's like. Just having Harry to talk to - just one other person to talk to - it's not that we've...I haven't gotten sick of her. I worry sometimes that I'm not interesting enough for her, but. I don't know. Even with what we are to each other now, with what we're trying to be to each other, that hunger to find more people...it's still there. I think she feels it too. She doesn't want to admit it because she doesn't want to admit that she spent seven years cooped up in that house with me, begging me not to leave for nothing, but... We can't change the past as much as we might want to. And there's no way of knowing who else might be out there. I'm really glad, Scarlet, to have broken the silence for you, to have brought color into the life of your counterpart and I don't know, maybe brightened some other sense of some other you somewhere, but is that enough? Don't you want to find someone? Have you tried looking--? Sorry. Bad choice of words. I just mean...are you certain that you're alone? Because we weren't. Junior and Donnie have been out there this whole time and...I've tried- I've tried reaching out to Birdie again. I even called out for Fox a few times. You may have heard it. I don't know, but having some kind of guidance, having some kind of direction to go in, it was...well, it was really frustrating, but it was also helpful. And Birdie, they said something had changed, that they couldn't see the path clearly any more, that the timeline we were in was different than the timeline we started in and I-- Nothing's different. Nothing is different and I don't know if I'm terrified of finding out what's changed or if I'm dying to know. What would you do, Scarlet? If you could change your world, press a button saying that things would be different, but you didn't know in which direction, would you do it? Or would you choose to keep things the same even if it's not quite enough? It's still safe. Would that be better?See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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• From Scarlet (Listener Message)

  Please visit breakerwhiskey.com for more information or to send a message to Whiskey's radio. Breaker Whiskey is an Atypical Artists production created by Lauren Shippen. If you'd like to support the show, please visit atypicalartists.co/support.If you'd like to send Whiskey a message, click here. --[TRANSCRIPT]Hello, Whiskey. My voice might sound somewhat familiar. And I suppose it is, but at the same time… it really isn’t. You received a message from someone calling themselves ‘Red’, and that’s… there’s no other way to say it, but that’s MY voice. I would know it anywhere. It’s all I’ve heard for these past seven years, except for your transmissions, and the occasional stray advert on the airwaves. And when I first heard it, I honestly thought I was going crazy. Thought maybe I’d sent a transmission without even realizing it. It… wouldn’t be out of the realm of possibility. I mean I do talk to myself, so that’s probably a sign of something, right? But then… this… Red, this other version of me, she started talking about white walls, and painting them, and colour, and rainbows, and that… Well, that made it clear that it wasn’t me. Not unless I’d gone completely crazy. See… (laughs) ’See’… I’ve never seen the walls in this place. I’ve never seen the walls in any place. I don’t know what shade of green money is. I don’t know what the sun looks like. I can tell you what the heat of it feels like on my skin, or the smell of a five-dollar bill, and I know every single bump and dent and bit of texture on the walls of my home… but I’ve never seen them. I’ve never seen any of them. I’ve been blind my entire life. Or… at least as long as I can remember. I won’t get into the… medical details, it’s not like I was in a position to understand them at the time. An infection, a bad fever, that’s all I really know. I certainly don’t envy my parents for what they went through, let’s just put it that way. So… you couldn’t bring colour back into my life, though I appreciate the sentiment. There’s just never been any there to begin with. I know some people do get lucky – such as that luck is - get to see shapes, or shadows, or pinholes of vision… I wasn’t lucky, I guess. Story of my life. But I am lucky to be here, I suppose. Beats the alternative. And wherever Red is, it sounds like she’s somewhere similar. And… probably pretty lonely. I know that feeling well. The… desolation, the hopelessness. The silence. So… thank you for breaking the silence, at least, Whiskey. I’m very grateful for that. And Red… if you’re out there, somewhere, able to hear this… I don’t even know how you would reach out, or how I would hear it, or if that would… destroy time and space or something, but just… I’m here. I’m here if you need someone. I’ve… become very well-versed in talking to myself. You’re… you used a pseudonym for a reason, and I suppose I should follow suit. Don’t want them tracking me down, after all of this. So… if anyone wants to reach out, whether it’s Whiskey, or Red, or… some other alternate version of me… you can call me Scarlet.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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