Another Podcast About Nothing

The last time I attended UNLV, I thought I could wing it. The truth is simpler: I failed.
In this episode, I talk about the fear, pride and lack of discipline I couldn’t admit back then, the people whose courage helped me keep moving, and what it means to return to the same campus as a graduate student.
I’m not an entirely different person. I’m the same person, carrying the lessons. This time, I don’t want to sleepwalk through it.

After nearly two months away, I’m finally pressing record again.
In this episode:
• Why rest can start feeling like another assignment
• How one difficult day can distort months of progress
• The difference between accountability and shame
• Learning to forgive yourself without avoiding the work
You don’t need to have everything figured out before you begin again.
HOW ARE YOU?

What happens when life is going well, but something still feels missing?

In this episode, I talk about the guilt that comes with feeling unsettled when you know you have so much to be grateful for. With my sabbatical approaching, I’ve been thinking about the pressure to make every moment count, the friendships I have not maintained the way I should, the difference between independence and loneliness, and what I might discover if I finally slow down.

Maybe I am not as unhappy as I think. Maybe I am just constantly evaluating my happiness.

This episode is about wasted time, future expectations, learning to live one task at a time, and refusing to treat my current life like a waiting room.

What else am I supposed to do? Not start over?
This episode is about reset weeks, starting over again, and learning how to rebuild trust with myself one small action at a time.
I talk about getting back on track, officially starting Chicago Marathon training, wanting more while still loving the life I already have, and trying to become someone I can count on.
Sometimes starting over is not failure.
Sometimes starting over is maintenance.
We learn. We own it. We ball.

In this episode, I’m talking through quiet reinvention — the kind of growth that doesn’t require moving cities, disappearing, or making a dramatic announcement. I reflect on wanting to leave Vegas, realizing I could change right where I am, preparing to train for my sixth marathon, and learning how small daily decisions shape identity.
I also get into the tension between staying hungry and being grateful, looking fine on the outside while feeling messy internally, and the difficulty of letting people actually be there for me. This one is about discipline, friendship, community, masculinity, love, and the quiet work of becoming someone new without running away from your life.